An Overdue Apology
Dear Rebecca,
I've told the story many times, but always from my perspective. I've probably gotten really good at making myself seem sympathetic, too. How I struggled for years with shame and guilt associated with undiagnosed gender dysphoria. How the sunlight shown through the clouds when the therapist responded to my 'deep, dark confession' with a nonchalant "So?" How after wandering in a wilderness of my own construction for 40 years, I finally realized I was a trans woman. Poor me.
But I've never told the story from your point of view. How so many of our relationship's inevitable bumps and bruises can be traced back to me ignoring a problem I didn't have the guts to face. How my fears impacted your life and left you wishing for things to be different. How I failed to live up to the vows I promised you on the day we married.
I love you forever. I wish I could have done it better while you were here. I'm sorry.
love,
your spousal unit
Great love lives on. 💕
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